Trance-Formation!!!

Its true!! I am in a trance... Kahaan wo aiyyaashi ke din jab maine bina soche samjhe laptop le liya tha n aaj ka din, when to buy a pen I've to think twice about money and monthly expenses.

Coming from a well paying job(atleast from my perspective :) ), financial independence is something which I am used to. It is a big paradigm shift from being able to spend when I wanted , where I wanted, to keep my ulterior wants under control. To watch a movie in a Fun cinema instead of PVR, to eat in hostel after watching the movie rather than "chilling out" at a Mac'D or someplace else equally unproductive :P:P.

"Its all in the mind", people would say. If you want to spend you will. I know i should not spend and my brain agrees with the logical reasoning and counter I give to support my financial frugality but what about my curbed heart which craves for some impulsive buying, some therapy from hectic schedules where I can let loose my purse strings to do what I want.

I guess I am not alone in this dilemma, every person who ha shifted to a student life from a Job life will face this problem. I am just thinking there is some better way to approach this particular problem which at some levels is so irksome but correct, so frustrating yet absolutely necessary.
I just console myself by reiterating in my head that, I am going through this phase so that I could earn, spend and live in a grander way than I used to just a couple of months back. This is my agnipareeksha and I am in no mood to fail this pareeksha or the consecutive ones for the next 2 years.

To cross fire barefoot, babas or sadhus used to go into trance mode to seperate their body from the pain. I am in trance mode now and will break this once I am a proud owner of a brand new postgraduate degree and a satisfying and a well paying job.

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